30 March 2012

Party of 11

We're here.  We've got everyone together.  Not really together as there is no adequate hotel room to house us all...but we're in the same hotel...a few doors apart.

Daddy has four of the young men.  He had enormous success calming down Tornado Neam last night.  He was crazy getting into bed.  So Daddy put his hand on the top of his head and he suddenly calmed.  He went to sleep finally with Daddy's hand on his head, while Daddy prayed prayers of thanksgiving for him and his life.

Today has been indescribably enormous.  We started the day with finalizing the papers to make Neam an official H family member...after 15 months...seems surreal.

Then we boarded a train to another province.  Four and a half hours that were stressful, and sometimes sweet.  Upon arriving here, we were taken to our hotel.  We were told that they would bring Ezra to our hotel.  We came downstairs after dropping off our backpacks and there he was.  Sitting on the couch, his eyes wide and a little fearful, he was just sitting there waiting for us.

It was nearly six PM when we received him.  It was an emotional night for all of us. We are thankful for your lifting us up right now.

As I looked around the dinner table I felt dwarfed by the enormity of all of it..the two new ones..our family all together...the unknowns of the future. I told Daddy as he hugged and encouraged me tonight that the last time I felt this way, it was the first night when we arrived in the Middle Kingdom..to live.  I nearly had a panic attack that night, but as I look back on the raw emotion of that night, that point of no return has brought so much blessing into my life.

I'm not talking about living Here (or There) or adopting and having a family of 11 in the same apartment...it is this point when the rubber hits the road and obedience through faith. it is, well, it is so far beyond what we can handle on our own.  Only by His strength...and that is where He wants me to live...depending daily on His strength.

Tomorrow we sign the papers for Ezra..then off to the hometown where he has lived in an orphanage for the past 4 years of his life.  We pray we'll get train tickets home the day after as we so, so, so will need some time in our home to try and figure out the practical side of this divinely designed happening.

Some pictures of today...

Above:  Just after our finalization this morning...an official H family teammate.

Below:  The next few photos attest to his influence over the siblings...these were all taken while waiting at the train station.




Below: Dad and Magpie share a moment on the train platform.


Below:  Potato shows off her changing smile...that front tooth is dangling, twisted, and has moved to the middle!  It is a riot!



Below:  The Bug and The Bruiser hamming it up on the train.


Below: In the bus, on our way to meet Ezra


Below: Party of 11


Below:  The connection between these two continues. How they love each other.  Brownie wanted to feed him his dinner so badly!  (Sure this posh treatment won't go on forever!)


Too tired to think...all others in my room are snoring...so must I.

More tomorrow.

29 March 2012

Got him!

Oh yeah...

It was amazing.  He walked into the room, waved at us, and smiled.

So brave.

He then went on to generally terrorize all the siblings while squealing and shouting with joy about the toys in the playroom.

Then a stop at KFC (sort of our new China - adoption ritual,) finally, we are home and readying ourselves for the train ride tomorrow to get Ezra.

Big changes in this family in just 24 hours.

Here are some photos:

Above:  Daddy on the way to Civil Affairs

Below:  Magpie gives The Singer a lift and Brownie shows her enthusiasm for another brother!

 Below:  Momma with the "golden ticket package" that arrived just two hours before we had to leave to make the appointment to get the new little man

 Below:  What a kid.  What a difference it makes to be able to speak Chinese!  (At least 5 year old Chinese!)     He listened to me, and even gave me some smiles.

Above:  Family pic...minus our dear hearts in the US...and Ezra who will join us tomorrow!

Below:  Our customary post-adoption stop at KFC.  Please note, Bub is doing better with the new brother than both these photos suggest.  Just got two where he wasn't flashing his pearly whites.


 Above:  Jie Jie Bug, The Bruiser, and The Singer chillin' while paperwork was being signed.

Below:  Magpie and The Bug at KFC

Above:  We walked out of Civil Affairs and this was the scene as we walked down the road to get taxis (2) to head to KFC.  It was sweet...too sweet.

Above:  The new man, tickling the ivories.

Above:  Playing with his new toy with Jie Jie Potato's help

Above:  We have these cows/bulls/unknown bovine statuary at our shopping area.  The kids LOVE to sit on them...check out this group of cow wranglers.

Below:  Yes, I believe the bovine statuary is weary white fish-net hose.
No, I don' t have any idea why.


 Below: This photo pretty well sums up this man's personality.  He is WILD.  W.I.L.D WIIIIIIILD.
But, he is doing great right now.  Splish-splashing with a couple brothers in the bath tub...it is mayhem.

Tomorrow +1 more

3PM

Government office has the necessary documents.

The appointment is set for 3PM to receive our son.

Still don't have in hand the last paper we need...but tracking says that it is in our city, scheduled to be delivered today.

Must teach classes and grade papers for the next 5 hours while we wait! ;)

Planning to post pictures later today!

28 March 2012

Tomorrow, Definitely....Maybe

Today gave me the unparalleled opportunity to teach the phrase "photo finish" to one of my good friends. She was in the company van with me, hurriedly going out to purchase train tickets to the next province...for a Friday trip to pick up Ezra.

As it stands tonight, we are going to/likely going to/probably going to get Nehemiah tomorrow (our Thursday.)  That is, if the magic ticket from Beijing arrives here...after Ms. Guo got it signed on the third day of our quest to possess it.  I was sent a tracking number for the golden ticket (actually there are two golden tickets, ours that must arrive at the school, and the local governments, that also must arrive tomorrow morning.)  Just to add some fun to the situation, the tracking number/system for tracking is wonky and it shows that the package has not moved in more than 24 hours!  However, IF both golden tickets arrive, as they are expected to, we will drive across town and finally welcome Nehemiah into our family.  It has been a staggering 15 months since we first saw his picture and "knew" that he was an H man.

Oh and...the money that was wired from the US here some 6 days ago, still has not arrived in the bank account to pay for the fees that are due tomorrow upon receiving our fifth son, as well as our sixth son, due to be joined with us on Friday.

Just a few big issues still hanging out there...

Don't know if we should celebrate tonight, or strike a more cautious pose.  It is just crazy to be on the "maybe-eve" of our fourth "gotcha" day...but maybe not...

Assuming that the climax of months of work will in fact produce our new son tomorrow...then we will go home for the overnight "harmonious period" where we will "decide" if in fact we wish to proceed with the adoption.  He will, without a doubt, become our next H family member.

The next morning (our Friday) we will go to sign the official adoption registration, forever adopting this boy who tonight has no birthright, no family name, and then we will whisk him and seven of his closest (geographically) brothers and sisters for an all expense-paid trip to the next province North of us.

Four and a half hours later, we'll get off the train, and go immediately to Civil Affairs where we will receive Ezra.  My head is spinning at the thought of it, already.

Friday night will be the "harmonious period" for Ezra, then we'll sign the registration papers on Saturday morning (a work day Here due to the upcoming Tomb Sweeping Holiday), and will load our burgeoning family into a mini-bus to drive 2.5 hours back to the town where Ezra's orphanage is located.  After applying for his passport that afternoon, we'll retire for an overnight at the orphanage where Ezra has lived for the past four years.

Another train on Sunday (another work/school day) will bring us back home where we will begin our new life together as a family with 11 offspring...nine still at home...and two crazy-blessed, yet often tired, parents.

I promise photos here as soon as we have them.

Please be lifting us up as you wake up on your Wednesday, for the money to arrive, the papers to arrive, and for the most momentous experience imaginable in the afternoon to come to pass.

He has done great things.

24 March 2012

Yes on Ms. Guo...No on supervisor signature...

The roller coaster of end game adoption is in full swing.  Lots and lots of ups and downs are experienced.  Ms. Guo did "print" our final piece of paper, however, by four PM on Friday afternoon, there were "no supervisors left in the building" to sign it.

A glimmer of hope remains for getting both boys next week...

If Ms. Guo can find ANY supervisor willing to sign the paper on Monday, it will be sent out to us to arrive on Wednesday.  If it arrives Wednesday (to us AND to the provincial offices) there is a slight chance that we can still get Nehemiah on Thursday, then travel on Friday evening by train to Ezra's province to receive him on Saturday.  (Due to the Tomb Sweeping Holiday, next week is a SEVEN day work and school week!  Can you imagine a school/business in the West working seven days straight?) 

We would register Ezra's adoption on Sunday, travel to his hometown to apply for his passport (for those of you in the adoption world, this is a NEW wrinkle...no more receiving passports through the Civil Affairs office in the capital of some provinces, you must travel to the passport bureau in the child's hometown to get it!)  If this ridiculous schedule can happen, we'll be home for our three day Tomb Sweeping Holiday on April 2-4.

If we cannot get the paper on Wednesday, we will have to wait until after the holiday to get Nehemiah...and perhaps Ezra.  So, please, keep lifting this time frame issue up.

Today must organize the massive "closet room" in our apartment.  The boys' bunks need to be rearranged in their room and the whole room spiffed up for the two new residents!  ;)

Thanks for the personal emails and comments encouraging us...they matter to us...so much.

Going to post two new pictures:


Above:  This past week a true advocate for Ezra traveled from the US to visit the O.  She captured this photo of him in a hat she brought for him.  Many thanks to her for her continuing love and support...and many thanks for this new photo that shows his darling face!

Below:  GRANDSON ALERT!  New photo of Malachi, our grandbaby!  He is two months old now!  Come July, come, so we can squeeze this baby boy!


Will update again soon about Monday...then perhaps Gotcha photos in SIX DAYS OR LESS!!!!

21 March 2012

New sons...

After one year of working on Nehemiah's adoption...and nine months of pursuing Ezra's adoption...we are in the home stretch.

If you would lift up our request that a certain, final, government official would be in her office on Friday and willing to sign off on our final piece of paperwork...then we will bring home the boys next week!

The last two days have been a flurry of emails, phone calls, and text messages working on four different government departments over four provinces of China to get the paperwork through. We have already seen some formidable mountains moved today!  Now, just the last one (and an agreement from the orphanages to our desired "Gotcha" dates next week) and the boys will be home for the National Tomb Sweeping (Qing Ming) festival!  (Actually, we've not really gotten into the celebration/observation of that holiday yet...but two new sons would certainly be a celebration for us to remember!) ;)

Last week we received a wheelchair for Ezra from a foster home in Beijing,  we received, divinely, the funds required to complete the adoptions, and we were notified about a potential van available for us!  His timing is always perfect.  These adoptions have taught me a deeply difficult lesson in that.

This issue of timing is also evident in that the past two months I would say that The Bruiser has demonstrated phenomenal development in bonding, language, and attachment.  This was an area of immense concern for him and his future.  Just last week I was sitting at the table, with this previously largely verbally uncommunicative child, and he talked for ten minutes straight about his school, his friends, and what he liked to eat!  I cried as I marveled that seemingly overnight, he has changed.  Every morning this week he has come out of the bedroom, sought me out, just to snuggle for a few minutes!!!  Truly, this is glorious!!!  Daddy said, "well, that must be why the new sons couldn't come home yet...Bruiser still needed a bit more time for his restoration."

I think we're ready for them...how can one really be ready for two new sons...aged five and four to walk into your life and to turn everything upside down?  For about four months...we'll think we're dying as everyone learns their place in the new family configuration.  But we're excited nonetheless!  For we know that these boys belong here, with their family...and we cannot stand anymore time for them to be away from home!

More updates, soon.

20 March 2012

Good People

While I don't intend to begin a discussion of the innate value of mankind aside from a relationship with their Creator, I would say that last night I sat among some people who clearly reminded me that mankind are the Image-bearers of Him.  In this world of catastrophic news and evil done among humans, one to another, I was quite literally awestruck by being in the presence of some "hao ren" (translation is "good people") who have done great things in this our host province.

Our morning began as usual, hustling out to school for Monday's start to the week.  But, at 3 pm, after changing clothes at the school, Daddy and two of the H kids (The Bug and Potato) were picked up by a van and taken to the annual broadcast of a provincial TV station recognizing the top news stories involving "good people."  We were deeply honored to sit among these beautiful people whose stories were each examples of good works done to benefit others.

The story of our family and the make-up of it (five biological children and soon-to-be six adopted children), has overwhelmed our life here since October.  We have done over twelve TV interviews/special programs, on various stations, multiple newspaper interviews, and radio as well.  Each time, we've been thankful for the opportunity to talk about love, His love, that is given to us to give to others.  We've enjoyed being a living, breathing, visual aid illustrating adoption, a concept little understood or accepted socially, Here.  It has been quite amazing to have so many people interested in our family, that in the West, is not so unusual.

Our story placed us within the company of twenty-two other stories of "good people" who were adjudged as "moving" the hearts of our province.  We were WAY, WAY, WAY out of our league!  It was such a gift to be involved in the live, two hour TV special last night, as eleven of the stories were developed more elaborately through video, music, and staging.  We sat among greatness.  We were terribly out of place, as we are just a family, but the access to those who truly were inspirational, was breathtaking.

One woman helped to save a little girl from being hit by a truck, herself then being struck and sustaining an injury that cost her both her legs below the knee.  Another mother, whose daughter had been badly burned, gave her own skin, literally having it removed from her body to be grafted on to her daughter's, to allow her daughter to be healed.  A man I sat next to, lost his only son a few years ago from some sort of blood disorder.  While in the hospital, his family received some money from unknown individuals, to help pay the medical bills.  On his son's deathbed, the father promised that he would honor his son by continuing to help others.  Now, his meager salary is given out to help with college tuition for students in need, to help with medical bills for the poor, to help neighbors who need money.   Another man, a teacher, who himself suffers significantly as he is unable to walk unassisted by crutches, teaches daily in a very poor, rural school.  The countryside, so impossible to navigate in a wheelchair or crutches, that often his wife must carry him on her back up the rocky hill to the school on her back.  No matter his pain, he is dedicated to helping the children receive the best education they can, for as long as he is able to give it.

The tears flowed from many of the hao ren as the stories were told.  But, as we waited to walk in on the red carpet to the TV studio, we were greeted by a man, another of the hao ren,  who said HE'D been waiting to meet US.  He said some beautiful, kind words to us, and encouraged us and our family greatly.  His face was so peaceful, strikingly kind, and he was so soft-spoken.  We were then able to hear about he and his wife, who live in the countryside of our province, about seven hours away from our capital city.  They saw the need of dozens of children in their village and surrounding area, who were left-behind, when their young parents had to go to the cities to work.  This is an enormous social issue now.  Young adults who marry, must leave their ancestral hometowns in the countryside to go to the cities to earn money that will support their parents and grandparents back in the villages, all year round.  Of course, those young adults, who marry, are responsible to their families to have a child, too.  Often, that child is left behind with the aging grandparents, or in some cases great-grandparents, to be raised in the village.  The impact of this, these babies, being left behind and raised by often much older relatives, alone, is staggering. Their educational opportunities are limited...but the greatest of all...their education as people, family members, their emotional development, their awareness of societal norms...is greatly lacking.

This man,Lu Ping, and his wife have taken in over 180 children into their home to raise. Currently, they have 32 children living in their home.  The video showed the children's shoes all lined up outside the rough exterior of their countryside dwelling.  More shots of his wife and some children cooking, hands chapped and red, washing dozens of potatoes in frigid well water...the clothes area with plywood shelves built to organize the children's layers of clothing...the open courtyard where the children play with sticks and their imaginations...

Another child they have taken in, could not walk at five years of age when he came to their home.  Lu Ping, having no formal training, began doing physical therapy with the child.  After an extended period of time, the child is now able to stand and take a few independent steps.  Lu Ping told us that he plans to use a swimming area, near their village home, once the weather warms up, to take the boy for more therapy using swimming.  He beamed with love as he spoke about this boy who would have had, quite literally, no prospects for anything but begging, in his future.

I was awestruck.

I wept and held Potato tightly on my lap.

They brought a young couple to the program, who presented their comments about their own daughter, that they cannot raise, who is living in Lu Ping's home.  They bitterly wept as they talked about the pain of separation from their child, but the gift that the Lu family has given them, knowing that their child, is being cared for compassionately and intentionally.

The end of the program brought the announcement that Lu Ping's family will receive the funds to build a proper school building on their property so that the children can further their education.

After the program, we found ourselves face to face with this man, so slight of stature, so immense in his love for others...and I was compelled to hug him...he warmly received it and then hugged Daddy, Bug and Potato...he has invited us to go to his home and to see first hand the work there.  I can assure you, we will.  He said that he will also bring some of this children to visit us, and our school, to talk about ways we can work together with our common hearts for children.

I know that this connection was divinely orchestrated.

This week I was feeling really sorry for myself.  I'm often really tired...and there is never any rest to be had.  Daddy and I often feel worn thin.  Nothing gets done without a monumental effort on my part (this is where the descent into self-pity always begins.)  The simplest task are quickly unmanageable once the variables of nine family members are brought to bear.  There is all this cooking, cleaning, organizing, layering upon layering of clothes to dress everyone, and then those classes to teach, too.  Wow, the pity party (as I'm sure you can feel from my previous comments) was really in full swing.  I was certain that as martyr mom, my life is really hard with these kids...and two more coming very, very soon.

But, I was corrected, deeply, powerfully, by the example of Lu Ping and his family.  I was reminded again how soft I am, how I desire comfort over sacrifice, how I demand respect instead of willingly offering service, how I esteem myself as one requiring "a break" instead of putting my head down and joyfully living each day to the fullest.

In reality, the Word teaches that I am a slave, and I was bought with a price.

Lu Ping's wife lives in a home with no heat, in the mountains enduring frigid temperatures.  She cooks for thirty-four people, three meals a day, in a kitchen with no modern conveniences.  She manages dressing child after child after child in layers upon layers upon layers to keep them warm.  And her face...is radiant.

We did not deserve in any way to sit among those people last night.  Yet I am so grateful that we did because we were able to see up close, beauty in suffering, heroism in sacrifice.

Oh Lord, grant that I will never forget the lessons learned last night...may I surrender willingly, joyfully, to the life you've called me to. May I embrace all the burden that is brought by loving others.  May your Kingdom come, among us, as we readjust our identities as slaves to a compassionate master.

15 March 2012

Normal

I've been thinking a great deal about the concept of normal.  A month ago it was a vocabulary word that was included in the curriculum for my English students.  The definitions varied, but as we all know, the general idea is that it means what is expected, what is usual, what the majority of the time would happen...

In that same period of time, I've been inundated with answering adoption questions from PAPs (prospective adoptive parents.)   Often the questions "normally" run from "what is being an adoptive family like?" to "what is the adoption program like that you've been through?"  Yet, sometimes, I get questions about my kids' "special" needs.  (ie, missing left eye, missing fingers, the things that are not "normal", etc.)  I use the words special needs all the time, especially as I find it helpful in communicating about the specific adoption program that all four (soon to be six) of our children have come through.  The Special Needs track of adoption is different than the "non-special needs" track within the adoption world.

Anyway,  too often when my mother and I talk, she asks me how we're doing and I answer "busy as usual."  While it is true, life is perpetually busy living Here with seven kids, teaching full time, and all that goes with our projects...we are always busy.  So, I've been thinking, my correct answer to the question of "how are you?" is, " everything is normal."  In fact, I used to think that someday soon things would slow down, we'd get a less-pressing stretch of time, and we'd catch our breath.  But, even as the eternal optimist, I think it is now intellectually dishonest of me to continue to fantasize about that time that is never coming...maybe not for at least the next ten years? (I come by this trait passed down by my mother who forever told me as a child when things were difficult, "We're just about to turn the corner!")

And in terms of my kids "special needs"....well, everyone of my children by marriage, by birth, by adoption, has special needs.  Without a doubt so do Daddy and myself!  Maybe our special needs are not so easily identified externally, but we all have them (extra bone in the foot, poor eyesight, anxiety, large birthmark, control issues, difficulty in focus, and on and on.)  It has become increasingly difficult for me to be able to talk about my children using the labels that were initially assigned to them through the adoption system.  Yet those were the labels that in some cases struck fear in my heart when we considered IF that child was to come home to us.

Often, when asked, I have to think about it for a second to REMEMBER what the the special needs are of each kids.  And truly, those identified special needs have tended to be the least of what has made their lives challenging.  In truth, it has been the issues of insecurity, anxiety, abandonment, institutional delay, or the feelings of loss that are the matters of greatest consequence when it comes to family relationships.  The physical issues that affect all of our children are the very least of the matters that impact their lives.  Of course, it is true that their physical issues will have impact on their lives in varying degrees as they navigate through their lives.  (Ezra's life in a wheelchair will demand accessibility as he travels, works, has a family of his own some day. Bub's single eye will affect his depth perception and can be a factor in his future driving, employ-ability, and he'll never be a fighter pilot.)  But the issues that have made raising the children challenging are the "heart issues," for all of them, regardless of how they came into the H family.  I suppose that each of our the members in our family are simply normal.

On Tuesday this week we had a power outage at our apartment and the school.  It lasted for about four hours.  We had to walk down the eight flights of stairs to get to school (which had us all imagining the near future when Ezra is home and we will have to carry him down the stairs on such a day.)  The classrooms were really dark, so I moved my students to sit on rugs near the window and we read a story together.  The next story in our reading book was about a goose, who had only one foot.  The story involves a little girl who worries and worries about the goose.  She wants to help the goose because she is sure that the goose will not be able to eat, swim, and most importantly, fly south when the freeze comes for winter.  One day all of the geese are gone.  She frets all winter and spring about what must have come for the goose.  Then one day, the flock returns to the pond behind the girl's house.  The one-footed goose now has a mate and shortly seven baby geese have hatched.  I asked my students when we finished reading the story, "what did you learn from this story?"  (This can be sort of an advanced question with my third year ESL students, as they may well understand the story and my question, but to be able to articulate their answer in English is a heady proposition.)

Toby piped up and told of a story he saw on the internet of a woman who was born without legs, but that he was so surprised to see how "happy" she was in her life.  That she could do so many things and he had been amazed.  Then Terry quickly added to the story of Nick V (the Australian guy born without arms or legs) and his independent lifestyle...even learning to swim! Then others, like popcorn, started relaying their knowledge of people born with physical "special needs", including some of my children.  All of them agreeing that just because one is born with a physical special need (like the goose in the story) it did not mean that they would have a bad life or that they would not have the blessings of love, family, and community that we all cherish.  Finally Ethan said, in his awkward English, "It make me think, if these other peoples are borned with no arm or leg but they do their best and live happy, I should do my best and be happy for my life too."  Then just as the whistle blew on class (the bells are powered by electricity)...Jack, previously deep in thought, said, "trouble with your body does mean nothing if you have a family who gives you love."

I walked away from that class, immensely grateful, for what my "normal" children have taught me about myself and the concept of physical special needs...about what this adventure of following Him has done for my realization that to have special needs is in fact, normal...not extraordinary at all...