Abram

Got him.

He’s gorgeous.  He’s brave.  He’s grieving so very hard.  Yet, we had laughter over dinner (KFC) which is our ceremonial post-adoption fare.  He has a very funny sense of humor.  His eyes are bluish.  His hair is white as snow.  He is TALL.  He was loved, loved, loved by his foster parents who accompanied him to meet us a Civil Affairs.  Tons of weeping, not a dry eye anywhere…he is just now silently whimpering on my lap.  My heart is breaking.  Daddy keeps rubbing his legs and he is soothed by touch, we are so grateful.  Got all the contact info with the foster parents: a total answer to prayer.   Promised to her that we’d do our best to care for this one that she has raised since he was six months old.  His eyes are super light-sensitive and he needs GLASSES for a lack of vision at any distance.  He has held my (Momma’s) hand since he let go of hers.  He allows me to comfort him, which is an amazing gift.

He cried for nearly three hours straight.  At times like these, it would be easier not to understand Chinese as he pleads with me for his foster mom, his house, to quickly, quickly take him back.  Someday he will understand that as a foster parent, they had no rights to him.  That they could not guarantee him a home.  That they had no control on how many more days, or years he would've lived with them.  All of them...powerless.  Which is exactly how I feel this evening...exhausted...and powerless to soothe the ache that is tearing him up.   The photo of us with them..for us, the joy of a day finally arrived.  For them, a day of profound loss.  It is so difficult to even look at it. 

Tomorrow it is official.  First thing in the morning, we write up the last of the papers and have him as an H kid.  He is so dear.  He is so beautiful.  He is struggling so hard…I cannot imagine the pain and confusion in his heart.  Even still, we sensed the Presence of the Comforter, ever so powerfully.  Keep lifting us up, we ask humbly…adoption is not for wimps….and we want to be strong for this precious, gift from God.

Some photos and a video of some silliness at dinner: